today's my 72th post nothing makes me feels better everywhr i look , im reminded of wad happened everything reminds me of smthng of those times of that nyte of the days wen i had him wit me the look the beatings the stupid tears i shed , im stupid i have to go away staying here makes me cry makes me think again i can just replay everything that happened in my brain the faces the shoutings everything has its own say in my brain i have no guts to face him i have no guts to face mama she will just explode infrnt of me everythings going haywire im going away soon . smwhr till i feel better till i dnt have this thing haunting my braiN mama's chatting wit me , i feel AWFUL