Monday, August 3, 2009
my mood is lifeless in schl today . its so depressing i can win an award for being the most depressed student today ):
i have 40mins left before my sister comes home from manicure/pedicure session
So .. In 4 years time she will be married
MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED IN 4 YEARS TIME
MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED IN 4 YEARS TIME
MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED IN 4 YEARS TIME
MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED IN 4 YEARS TIME
MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED IN 4 YEARS TIME
MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED IN 4 YEARS TIME
MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED IN 4 YEARS TIME
MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED IN 4 YEARS TIME
MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED IN 4 YEARS TIME
MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED IN 4 YEARS TIME
MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED IN 4 YEARS TIME
MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED IN 4 YEARS TIME
(!!!!!!!!XZXZXZXZX!!!!CXZXZXXZXZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!XZXZZXXZ!!!!)
I think i would stop before there isnt much space for me to blog as everybody knows i dnt blog like im going write a novel - HEEEHEEEE
in 2012 i would be in poly
in 2012 i would have had my GREEN scrambler motorbike
in 2012 i would be 165-168cm
in 2012 i would be clubbing with my sister
in 2012 i would be *insertfunactivities* to do in life
but
in 2012 she will be married
in 2012 she moves out of two different houses and stay under a roof of her own
in 2012 i will no longer sleep with her and see her silat shows at night
in 2012 i no longer have to make sure that she eats her medicine every morning
in 2012 i wont have anyone to complain about everything to
in 2012 i wont have anyone to do my mynahh style liquid eyeliner
in 2012 i wont be asked to move because im blocking her way around the room in the morning
in 2012 i will celebrate hari raya alone . without anything great to look forward
i will shop alone , do my make-up alone , testing my 4-inch shoe by then alone
Basically , by 2012 i will lose the another half of me
and thinking of that now is already depressing )):
i mean i am happy for her , like really happy but the feeling of losing is stronger than that
i am suppose to appreciate the time now and treasure all these moments but still it all comes to and end in 4 years time and i feel the dreadness already now
This is when i say ' yeahhh me ' and its obvious that i dont mean that either
xoxo
Labels: yesterday we cheered for a cat who climbed down from a tree (: